Thursday, October 28, 2010

My Precious

Well, I posted that I'll be starting my weight loss journey this up coming Monday & for the most part, I'm excited. I have some good ideas to implement & wonderful women who are just as excited as I am to shed some unwanted pounds.
However, I'm intimidated too. I mean come on, when I met The Hubby I was about 60 lbs less than what I weigh now! That's A LOT of pounds. And it took 11 years to put it on & I really don't wanna have to wait 11 more years to feel/look good again.
Anyway, this week is my "last hoorah" of eating some good yummies I will need to cut back on. And yes, I said CUT BACK not CUT OUT. I don't do well when I restrict myself to the extreme, if I do that I end up like the Stay Puft Marshmallow Man in Ghostbusters pounding through the streets in search of food. Not a pretty sight.
I mean I'm not going way overboard & eating every cookie & brownie in sight, but I have a few things I wanna work outta my system.
Breyer's Strawberry Ice Cream & Oreo's for example.
I told The Hubby a few weeks back that I had to have some of my Breyer's before I started my diet & then it slipped my mind because it's been too cold for ice cream. Well, this past Monday I started getting goofy for my Breyer's & finally yesterday I told The Hubby I had to hurry up & finish dinner so I could run out to the grocery store. He's all like OK baby, no big deal...I said "no, you don't understand...I NEED TO GO & NOTHING IS GOING TO STOP ME"
He kinda grunted & was all like...again~no biggie. But I wanted him to understand the magnitude of the situation, it was my ice cream & if I had to go to the store he had to take care of everything at home.
And NOTHING was stopping me from going to the store, NOTHING was coming between me & my ice cream. I spoke fervently & quickly that I only had a few days left & that I was gonna buy hot fudge & whipped topping too & that I just had to have it.
He sat across the table & whispered...."My Precious"

Yea, I guess I deserved that cuz I was kinda acting like a lunatic. But I can't say I learned from it because I went ahead & bought my ice cream & ate gobs of it. Then today was a really stressful day & ya know what I kept thinking about??
Every time I got worked up I would think "Man, I want some OREOS " now I didn't act on it, mostly because I didn't wanna share with the kids.
Yea, I'm bad.
But, it really struck me that I was looking to food to calm me. WHOA!! That's a pretty big deal ya know. It was a line drive smack in the middle of the forehead that I'm getting my peace somewhere other than God. That's a real dishonor to Him.
He clearly states in His word~

"You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me. Exodus 20:4-5

I need to point out that I see I'm worshiping this food by looking it to it for joy, peace, & all sorts of stuff. It's just plain wrong & hurts the heart of God. It can't possibly please Him that when I'm stressed out dealing with my Internet provider that instead of running to Him I run to the refrigerator. How messed up is that??
Honestly, that's not truly trusting Him~that's looking to "my precious" for my security. I can't do that anymore. It's wrong.
So, I suppose this upcoming Monday I'll be doing more than attempting to shed unwanted pounds, I'll begin dealing with feelings I've shoved down over the years with food. I'll be throwing "my precious" into the fires of Mt. Doom & hope to say goodbye forever. (The Hubby really knows his LOTR)

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Busy & Chunky not me

OK, I have been super busy. Not only did I pull off the worlds fastest move but I've been posting on my other blog daily. My friend Jessica posted the challenge of 30 Questions in 30 Days so that's been keeping me busy over there.
But alas, I can not stay away much longer, I must ramble on & on about my wee people whom I love but lately are making me feel somewhat loony.
I really oughta have grace for them ya know cuz their little lives have been turned around some, although they are adjusting well they are getting used to some different stuff. Like cable for example. We haven't had anything other than regular TV for years....YEARS. And now my kids are a little overwhelmed at all the choices. And honestly it's a trap for me because I can get a lot done parking them in front of the set. So I need to be disciplined with television as well & it's kinda hard. I like The Cake Boss =)
But anyway, what's new? The wee-munchkin is cutting a tooth, I think. She's really outta sorts & her gums look like their gettin ready to pop some teeth through. This being my 4th little animal you'd think I'd know by now but I'm always second guessing myself, oh well. Other than that she's still my Chunky McChunkster~that's what The Hubby calls her :-)
The Monkey is gettin a little...ummm...odd. She's been testing Mommy's boundaries & giving me a run for my money. I'm not likin' it but I know it's normal & I have to guide my little animal without losing it myself.
As for My Bear~she's my little ray of light right now =>
Making me so happy. She's trying so hard in school & doing so well. I just ordered some Math to do with her & I can't wait to give it a go!!
My Cow's homecoming is this Friday!! I can't believe it! She's growing up so fast & so beautiful! I will most definitely post pics of my gorgeous girl.
The Hubby is currently passed out on the recliner~my baby works so hard & I miss him so much.
And last but not least...ME. I have decided to......GULP....lose weight. ACH! There I said it, bleck...ech ech...UGH. Now, why am I choking over here?? Because you see I said it to the Blogosphere & now YOU KNOW. I can't go back.
I'm hoping you'll help & comment asking me some questions or just basically keep me accountable a bit. I plan on keeping you updated so lets see how this goes.
Oh & here's my goal 30 lbs by February 19th, Angies Sweet Sixteen party. I'm starting on November 1st & even added one of those little tickers on my blog, really~scroll down...see?? I plan on getting a fancy scale this weekend too that includes ounces so I can know every little bit I lose. Lets see how this goes!
Please keep me accountable! I need all the help I can get!! Thanks~

Monday, October 25, 2010

Pictures Say uhhhh???

Ah yes, that's right. Pictures say a thousand words so considering my life has been more than busy I'll just post a jillion pics & hopefully you'll get a window into my world =)

Visiting Isaac & Hannah

Hosting Mom's Prayer

Greg Laurie Harvest Crusade

Hopie's first bath in the new sink =)

Angie with her girlies'

Candles for Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Day

Makin' cookies for their baby sis

Passed Out....

Daddy & Hopie havin some fun

Apple Picking

Papooh Visiting

Still unpacking ;(

Sittin' up in her booster, standing alone, & showin' off her chunk

I really don't know

and last but not least, the most important person in my life

Sunday, October 3, 2010

But As For Me & My Apartment

So the last time I posted I wrote how I had 10 days to move & no idea where we were going. Well, I haven't been here in a while because those 10 days were chopped in half!! God blessed us with a new apartment!!
There were & still are quite a few hurdles. First, I had 5 days to pack my family of 6 & downsize from a 4 bedroom house with a garage to a 2 bedroom apartment with a small storage space in the basement. We had to produce a "team of movers" on very short notice. I had to try & transfer our utilities to a new address & half of them had either been shut off or were in the process of being shut off so it was more than difficult. Honestly, the list goes on & on & there are many many obstacles. However, I'm very happy about the move. I know we no longer have a yard but we have several parks, an activity center, & a library in walking distance. We no longer have a garage for storage but we have 4 pantry's!! That may sound silly but I'm ecstatic about that! I use one pantry for my school stuff. I use another for food, another for small appliances & odds & ends, & yet another for my linen closet. Plus the girls have a huge closet! It's amazing how some way it feels I have more storage.
However, everything isn't better, some things are much more difficult. Like laundry, the washer & dryer are in the basement. It's now 7:28 at night & The Hubby's work clothes are dirty. I have no quarters & it's dark & spooky down there. I'm not a Supermom at all tonight, at least not a Superwife....
Bringing groceries in is really hard too. We live on the 2nd floor now, & I'm not a youngin' anymore. I'm more than thankful for Cow because she literally saved the day & my back. I had done my weekly shopping & she stayed with the girls so they could nap. When I came home I had to unload the van in freezing rain & somehow get 8 or 9 bags up the stairs. Well, Cow came down & grabbed half the bags. We headed up the stairs but halfway to my humble abode my shoulders gave out. I mean they didn't just stop working, they jumped right outta their sockets & ran screaming right down the stairs & outta the house!!
OK~OK....maybe that didn't happen, exactly...but it could of!!
Anyway, I've been moving so many boxes & furniture around that my body just decided it had enough. and that's where the Super Cow comes in =) She grabbed those bags & flew right up the stairs!
Betcha didn't know a cow could fly did ya?
Well, this one can, & she's awesome!
I have yet to get used to things here, like hearing when everyone in the building takes a shower, being mindful to make sure we take lighter steps, & hearing the train go by.
Now that's something my animals absolutely love. The train. They love counting the cars & watching all the cool stuff the train carries. One time the kids were ecstatic to see the train stopped & it had huge tractors. They thought that was awesome! I kinda did too =)
So what have I learned Dear Lord in all of this???
I've learned that God blesses His children when we are faithful. I can't lie, it was really scary to up & move without knowing for certain where we were going. I mean it was down right nutty to some. But, The Hubby & I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt God was saying to get out & we knew that He would provide. Some look at that kind if faith & say it's foolish, but I look to them & say "trying to control the outcome of every circumstance in my life is what I believe to be foolish" I find it gives me great freedom to allow God to drive the vehicle which is my life & to trust that He is best suited for the job.
After all, I've tried driving, directing, & leading my life on my own without His help & it never got me anywhere good.
So with that said, I am more than happy in my smaller, up on the 2nd floor, laundry all the way down in the basement......apartment.

But as for me & my house we will serve the LORD. Joshua 24:15